Today, I paid $1,400 to my lawyer. That’s the irony of debt: you have to spend money you don’t have to solve a money problem. If I don’t pay him, he doesn’t move forward. And if he doesn’t move forward, the $170,000 tax bill keeps hanging over me. So you pay. You grit your teeth and send the transfer.
He messaged me — he needed to access my file with the tax authorities. Nothing more. No real news. Just one more step in a process that moves at a snail’s pace while the interest never sleeps.
At work, my boss’s brother sent me a new set of specifications for the Telegram mini app. A new one. Even though I’d already finished it. I rebuilt almost everything from scratch. This time, it should be done. But I’ve learned not to say “it’s done” too quickly at this company. We’ll see Monday.
And the real estate tokenization project? The boss told me to wait until next week. First the mini app, then we’ll see. “We’ll see” — more words that mean nothing when you need things to move.
Meanwhile, my prop trading platform is ready. Finished. Sitting in a corner like a product on a shelf in a closed store. I’d need time to promote it, join trading groups, reach out to prospects. But time is the one thing I don’t have.
I make $1,700 a month. For dev work, video editing, live streams, an app on the Play Store. It’s not much. But I’m not complaining. Every dollar is one more dollar toward the exit. And the experience I’m gaining — coding an app in a day, building a platform in a few weeks — that’s something no one can ever take from me.
What today taught me: Sometimes, you have to pay for the right to solve your problems. It’s unfair, but that’s how it is. The lawyer, the accountant, the fees — debt has a hidden cost that nobody mentions. But every payment is proof that you haven’t given up. Even when you’re paying to owe, you’re moving forward.
Day 6.